Please remember me

I love you with everything I am
and I hope this will last,
I really hope it will.

But if it doesn't, 

this is how I want you to remember me:

I want you to remember me laughing at your jokes, 

especially the stupid ones. 
I want you to remember me lying on your chest, 

listening to your heart beating

and tracing maps all over your skin. 

I want you to remember me hysterical for no good reason 

and crying that time you made me feel incredibly sad. 

I want you to remember me brave, 

the first time you kissed me and I didn't tell you, 

but I thought I was going to die; 

I want you to remember me scared 

and delicate
and gentle 

and breakable -

but only for you,

only for you.

I want you to remember me happy, 

and all the silly ways I tried to get your attention. 

I want you to remember how I didn't talk to you when I was really mad

and how absolutely insane it drove the both of us. 

I want you to remember all the firsts and how they were so perfect 

we went back for seconds 

and thirds 

and so much more. 

Remember the songs you couldn't stop singing to me 

and all the dreams we allowed ourselves about a future together.

If it comes to it I don't want you to remember the ending.

Remember the beginning. 

Remember the first time we knew.

— m.f. // Please remember me