You thought I was the best

We met two years ago.

I'm sorry for smiling back to you.

I was in love with someone else in that time,

and I told you so,

but you didn't care at all.

You said "I'm not asking you to commit with me,

all I want is to know who you are"

so I made up a name,

and an age.

I'm sorry for making you believe 

all the stories I said.

I've always been a good liar.

You bought me a drink,

and then I left without looking back.

I'm sorry for going away and not saying goodbye.

It felt like the right thing at the moment.

A week later you texted me,

I never figured out how you got my number.

I liked that about you, 

how you always found a way to get what you wanted.

I'm sorry for not being that easy to find.

At first,

you were just a stranger.

But after a lot of late night talks,

you were something else.

I'm sorry for making you believe 

that you were the reason why I stayed up late.

You weren't.

I always knew how to mess up with your head,

and you always knew how to make me laugh.

I'm sorry for being so complicated.

I've never been good at telling people how I feel.

Or how I don't.

The first time you said you loved me,

I didn't say a word.

Instead, 

I kissed you really hard.

I'm sorry for confusing you,

but maybe the response you needed,

was given in the lack of words.

I always thought you were going too fast.

See, it took you a week to fall for me.

Even though, I warned you.

I said "relationships have never been my thing"

and you stayed anyway.

I'm sorry for not letting you be the exception,

like you did with me.

You loved me with the kindest love 
I've ever experienced,

you didn't expect nothing in return.

You didn't care about all those titles,

or stupid promises.

You just wanted to be around me.
I'm sorry for not appreciating you.

I'm sorry for not loving you the way you wanted me to.

But most of all,

I'm sorry for letting you love me,

when I had no intentions to stay.

– m.f. // You thought I was the best, 
but now I think you deserve better