Valentine's Day

On this Valentine's Day

promise to love yourself better,

promise you will get to know yourself again.

I. Take yourself out to dinner. Get a glass of white wine and the most french-sounding dish on the menu. Try to awaken your hunger. Get dessert. Even get two.

II. Get yourself flowers. Pale pink and powder blue. Something that smells nice and lasts no time. Something wonderful and fleeting. Something that has no function other than beauty. Get yourself flowers and smile when you wake up in the morning, knowing you made yourself happy.

III. Buy yourself lingerie. Something that makes you feel sexy, not look sexy. Something you will feel good in. Black lace, yes. Black lace is always a good idea. Remember how you used to not fear darkness.

IV. Watch your favourite movie in bed. All messy bun and oversized pyjamas. Laugh and cry. And laugh again. Don't wipe your tears away. Let them dry on your cheeks, slowly. Feel what it is like when sadness evaporates.

V. Dance. Play the songs you loved before you met him. The songs you loved when you were still whole. Play the songs you listened to when you were becoming. When you were growing wings. Play music from a past life and say goodbye. Then, then look for a new favorite. For a new tune to set your heart to.

VI. Miss him. And let yourself feel it, for a moment. Then remember: you are the one you will spend the rest of your life with. You are the one you need to heal. You are the one you need to love. Remember you are the one. Remember and smile. Feel the warmth of your own love.

m.f. // Valentine's Day